Chiunism

從沒刻意  清醒中只剩下回憶

追也來不及  想縮短我們之間的距離

我真的很想好好珍惜  忘掉一切的不必

碎了的玻璃  就像遺憾的美麗

從沒在意  你默默守著的心事

我想我可以  再一次溫暖你的表情

但機會已經永遠失去  就像抓不住的空氣

碎了的玻璃  就像遺憾的美麗

背景完全相反﹐ 缺乏共同話題﹐ 目標與與人生觀全然不同。。。。 爭執比多。 開頭覺得新鮮刺激。。。 錯誤以為合得來。。。。其實一直走來。。。。沉默並不代表認同與接受。。。只是認為沒有資格對他的人生負責。。。。。也不想成為任何人的包袱。。。。她一時冷漠。。。一時患得患失。。。。一時覺得是世界上最幸福的。。。但多數時候她的心情在矛盾。。。抽離。。沉迷之間遊走。。。。。灰色的她原來沒有離開過。。。只是時間未到。。。日子久了。。。。兩人恐怕不得善終。。。。。。。。

Twenty - five years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination
And I realized quickly when I knew I should
That the world was made up of this brotherhood of man
For whatever that means
And so I cry sometimes
When I’m lying in bed
Just to get it all out
What’s in my head
And I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning
And I step outside
And I take a deep breath and I get real high
And I scream at the top of my lungs
What’s going on?
And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what’s going on?
Ooh, ooh ooh
And I try, oh my god do I try
I try all the time, in this institution
And I pray, oh my god do I pray
I pray every single day
For a revolution
And so I cry sometimes
When I’m lying in bed
Just to get it all out
What’s in my head
And I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning
And I step outside
And I take a deep breath and I get real high
And I scream at the top of my lungs
What’s going on?
And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what’s going on?
Twenty - five years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination

Something came out from your lips
But I’m already in pieces
So i hear nothing
I’ve chosen not to look into the eyes
coz i don’t want you to know what’s in mine

或許有點小懶。。。總提不起勁把手頭上的設計趕完它。。。一想到它就有種惡心感。。。對。。就有那麼嚴重。。。有人說當你把興趣當成工來做。。。。它再也不好玩了。。。

最近的我。。。想了好多以前不回去想的生活問題。。。看過一部戲。。。記得里頭有一句話說。。U MUST BE RICH TO BE CRAZY。。。自認有點瘋狂因子的我。。忽然才發現到沒錢的我。。。。是沒有資格做傻事的。。。再也瀟灑不起來了。。。哈哈。。。還是乖乖認命。。。做個普通人。。。存多點錢。。。買個房子。。買輛車。。。生個孩子。。。。har…..要meh!! 這好像不是我的人生計劃。。。。為甚麼我要步上這條路?? 難到我媽媽每天嘮嘮叨叨和婆婆盼望的眼神起了作用??還是身邊的人都那麼做而我覺得我一定要那麼做。。??或許他們都讓我覺得我的思想不太正常?

剛剛辭職不久。。那份工打了四個月。。薪水還不錯。。。但為何每天早上的上班路上。。。我都會自言自語。。。。一直問自己為甚麼??然後又會回答自己。。。再過後我會安慰自己說。。。我可以做到的。。再過後。。。累累地回家。。。再問自己。。又再回答自己。。又在安慰自己。。。不甘心地早睡。。。不甘願地起床。。。又班了。。。又自問答。。。。有夠沒用!

但是。。。他。。。一直都在。。。他是我最重要的人。。。

手累了。。。待續。。

死了都要爱
不淋漓尽致不痛快
感情多深只有这样
才足够表白
死了都要爱
不哭到微笑不痛快
宇宙毁灭心还在
把每天当成是末日来相爱
一分一秒都美到泪水掉下来
不理会别人是看好或看坏
只要你勇敢跟我来
爱不用刻意安排
凭感觉去亲吻相拥就会很愉快
享受现在别一开怀就怕受伤害
许多奇迹我们相信才会存在
死了都要爱
不淋漓尽致不痛快
感情多深只有这样才足够表白
死了都要爱
不哭到微笑不痛快
宇宙毁灭心还在
穷途末路都要爱
不极度浪漫不痛快
发会雪白土会掩埋
思念不腐坏
到绝路都要爱
不天荒地老不痛快
不怕热爱变火海
爱到沸腾才精采

Been checking my friendster and surprise to know that few of my frens are getting married….I’m informed thru the pics and blogs…but it was good enough….congrats to Yun Chiang…the boy that once sat next to me in class and made me laughed….congrats to Jaclyn…i’m truly happy for u …congrats to Catherine also..sorry that i didn’t make it for ur wedding dinner…and also congrats to many more..i knew there’s few more…especially back from my hometown…..haha…Falling in love is easy…staying in love it’s not easy…it’s a lifetime thingy to learn along the way….

It’s a big leap…anyway….HAPPY EVERYDAY! Come what may !

10 pm plus now and i felt so sleepy…which is so not me…..my usual sleeping time for the past weeks were between 5 to 6 plus am….i try to sleep b4 the sun comes out…haha….gosh….i’m blank…maybe i should just go to sleep now..but i’m sure i will wake up in a while and that will be another sleepless night…

Tuesday i got fever, Wednesday i had sore throat, Thursday i started coughing, Friday my nose was blocked, Saturday i lost my voice….What will happen tomorrow?????